Its that time of the year again!

This year I am not at all excited about thanksgiving. Although my Step father kicked me out I still wait for the day that he will ask me and Robbie to come back, but that will never happen if he never sees us!  He is refusing to go to the meal because it is at my grandmas and that is where me and Robbie live. Then turns out I have to work that day! My grandma gets off at 2, we don't eat until she gets home. I go to work at 4. I DON'T  GET TIME WITH ANYONE! It just upsets me because things just aren't the way they used to be...mom would always love to stay and chat it up with everyone and us kids would get board so we would walk home...this year me and Robbie don't get to do that, because we are already home. I hate even more that when they are done eating we just get to hug them and watch them walk out the door...they are going home to that man...that man who is doing the same thing my real father did to my mother, he is taking away her children. Robbie leaves at the end of the summer...she is missing his whole last year of highschool. She will never get this time back and she doesn't even get it right now. I just hate that this is a family holiday...its the first one thats come along since he kicked us out and its hitting me harder than I thought it would.

I hate today!!!!!

this day started out so good. i woke up when my alarm went off, i got my cousin up and ready for school and she didn't miss the bus, 1st and 3rd period were a lot of fun and lunch really couldn't have been funnier. Swing choir was the same amazing class it always is and then in 5th period we started a movie i have just been so excited about. Then my day turned to crap! Aunt flow decides she is going to visit and of course i don't have anything. My math teacher wont sign a paper letting me go on a swing choir trip and although i understand that she is mad about my grade i don't get why she doesn't try to help me... i'm not the type of person who goes and ask for help. i'm scared that everyone will think i'm stupid or something like that. She doesn't help me when she can clearly see that i don't understand. like i see that she could think that i was just lazy when i don't turn in my homework, but if i'm failing every test shouldn't that be a good hint that i just don't get how to do it? I'm scared that if she wont sign it then i can't go...I have to go on this trip. Soon i won't be at this school and swing choir is the only thing i like here, i have to make the most of the things i get to do with it...

my person...

Alex has never felt like she really belonged anywhere. Her parnents like to live a seperate life from hers and she has never had any real friends. When her parents decide to drop her off with her Aunt and Uncle for a week she feels even more out of place. Alex grew up in the city and now nights are quit, mornings start early, and everyone knows everyone. Alex wants nothing more than to get the week over with and just leave for college, far away from the family that doesn't want her. She just wants to escape, that is until she meets Landon. Landon grew up in this small town, and is to scared to leave. Within one week she can feel herself falling for Landon. But can she take the chance of staying with him and give up her only chance to get away?