Its that time of the year again!

This year I am not at all excited about thanksgiving. Although my Step father kicked me out I still wait for the day that he will ask me and Robbie to come back, but that will never happen if he never sees us!  He is refusing to go to the meal because it is at my grandmas and that is where me and Robbie live. Then turns out I have to work that day! My grandma gets off at 2, we don't eat until she gets home. I go to work at 4. I DON'T  GET TIME WITH ANYONE! It just upsets me because things just aren't the way they used to be...mom would always love to stay and chat it up with everyone and us kids would get board so we would walk home...this year me and Robbie don't get to do that, because we are already home. I hate even more that when they are done eating we just get to hug them and watch them walk out the door...they are going home to that man...that man who is doing the same thing my real father did to my mother, he is taking away her children. Robbie leaves at the end of the summer...she is missing his whole last year of highschool. She will never get this time back and she doesn't even get it right now. I just hate that this is a family holiday...its the first one thats come along since he kicked us out and its hitting me harder than I thought it would.

I hate today!!!!!

this day started out so good. i woke up when my alarm went off, i got my cousin up and ready for school and she didn't miss the bus, 1st and 3rd period were a lot of fun and lunch really couldn't have been funnier. Swing choir was the same amazing class it always is and then in 5th period we started a movie i have just been so excited about. Then my day turned to crap! Aunt flow decides she is going to visit and of course i don't have anything. My math teacher wont sign a paper letting me go on a swing choir trip and although i understand that she is mad about my grade i don't get why she doesn't try to help me... i'm not the type of person who goes and ask for help. i'm scared that everyone will think i'm stupid or something like that. She doesn't help me when she can clearly see that i don't understand. like i see that she could think that i was just lazy when i don't turn in my homework, but if i'm failing every test shouldn't that be a good hint that i just don't get how to do it? I'm scared that if she wont sign it then i can't go...I have to go on this trip. Soon i won't be at this school and swing choir is the only thing i like here, i have to make the most of the things i get to do with it...

my person...

Alex has never felt like she really belonged anywhere. Her parnents like to live a seperate life from hers and she has never had any real friends. When her parents decide to drop her off with her Aunt and Uncle for a week she feels even more out of place. Alex grew up in the city and now nights are quit, mornings start early, and everyone knows everyone. Alex wants nothing more than to get the week over with and just leave for college, far away from the family that doesn't want her. She just wants to escape, that is until she meets Landon. Landon grew up in this small town, and is to scared to leave. Within one week she can feel herself falling for Landon. But can she take the chance of staying with him and give up her only chance to get away?

Movie Review!

The last excisism was filmed like a documentary, so that you feel as though this could really happen. It starts our with a showman-preacher who tries to fake his way through another exorcism only to find out that what is happening is real. So now he has to try to get rid of some evil spirit that up until this point he didn't believe existed.
I was disappointed in this film. It was just boring and then more silly that scary. The only good part about the film was when the preacher faked the exorcism, and that was funny not scary. The previews clipped together the few good seconds here and there and put them together to draw you in, then the movie was just a waste of time and money. The movie made $9.4 million on its opening day but that was just the money from the tricked movie watchers. When I was leaving I heard nothing but complaints from everyone in the show that night.

I just really couldn't be more upset! We were so excited that it was our last competion of the season, and it wasn't just because it would mean a break from John our teacher. It was because it was Robbie's last time in the Pike Central Charger Birgade. It was the very last time I could get to perform on field with my brother who had introduced me to the amazing world of marching. So I guess that's what hurt worst. It was that John didn't care about that. He cared about what Nikki wanted or what Nikki said...and it hurt to see that.
I trusted John... I had gone to him when I was scared and alone. I had told him my stories that not even my best friend knew, just because I felt that I could trust him...But then he pulled this and I still feel just shock that it really did happen. I keep wanting to wake up and see that its still that day and that maybe he will change his mind...but he never will...
He told Robbie he would not be aloud to perform that last time. He told him that he would be helping with the props that day. He said it was because Robbie had missed to many practices but that couldn't have been it because I missed so many more days then Robbie had...so I just don't understand.
I watched Robbie cry and it broke my heart to see how bad he had wanted to perform and he just couldn't. So I marched back into the school to beg John to let him march, but Hannah was already begging and I could hear that John was telling her no.
He said he didn't care if I left with him and said that it would just be unfortunate if anyone else decided to leave with us. I was to mad to talk to him when Hannah walked away, so I just stood there and cried.
Hannah left with us that day, it was also her last performance in marching band and she was willing to give it up just to stand up for a friend. So while the band performed we went to e-ville and just had fun.
We had an amazing time and when we found out the band had come in last place I swear we couldn't stop laughing. And they didn't loose because we left, really I can't tell you why they always loose but I can tell you I'm done with it.
I am done putting up with the consant loosing. I am sick of wasting time just to be treated like trash when John gets angry.
So I am done with any type of band, and that trust that I used to think I had in John is gone. Now I feel nothing but anger at him. I feel hurt and sad when I think about what he did. Why couldn't he just let Robbie march his very last show?

Yay I have been unblocked!!!

I'm so excited! Change.org's gay rights part isn't blocked anymore! and I have now caught  up with all the story's I had missed and I'm just going to say that I have learned so much! no joke! I knew that when it was taking away it really was going to take something real away from me! but now i'm a happy camper! lol and i love it!

As a student ,do you feel prepared to enter the world of college, work, etc? Why/Why not?

In some ways I feel ready and prepared for college but then in some other ways I don't feel ready at all. But I wouldn't blame that on just this high school because they really do offer up every class you need to get ready for life after high school, so I put the blame on kinda everything around me. Just the thought of going to college and being out there on my own scares me like no other. And I guess one reason is that we are just so safe here. Our classes are just so perfect and on time and everything is just to an exact, and I really don't think thats how college is going to be. Here we seemed to be almost takin by the hand and walked everywhere, but thats not how it should be. Of course highschool is more free than all schooling before it but still not enough. Neither work or college run like this school does, and because we are kept so close and its baby steps through everything I think that makes us expect something different out of the real world. And maybe thats why so many fail these days. I mean really we walk out of here with some speach they gave us about suceeding and how they know we are ready for the next steps but in a lot of cases that doesn't seem true.

STOP BLOCKING ME!!!

So I have always thought that our school pushed the blocked sites a little to far but never really cared. I mean yeah it was a bother that every site you clicked just came up as blocked up I was always ok with just hunting down one that wasn't, but now I'm a little upset. I went onto change.org which I have been going on through school computers for over a year now and at first everything was ok, but then I clicked gay rights, because as many of you know I am so for gay rights, but anyways it was blocked! For the first time ever it was blocked! And at first I thought maybe it was a mistake, so I kept trying and everytime I was blocked. That site helps me keep track of what is happening with something that I really believe in. It educates me on things that are happening all over the world about this and I am hurt that the only part of this site that was blocked was that one. Its a site that makes me feel like some people do care, it makes me see that this world may just be changeing and I really don't think its fair to take that away from me. There are game sites that are still unblocked and last time I checked those didn't teach anyone anything so I don't think its fair to leave those and take away a site that has tought me something about life and just how much needs to change here. So although I know this isn't going to change anything I'm just sayin that I would like a little freedom! Show me proof thats it a horrible site that is making me stupid or isn't good for me and I'll let it be shush up but until then I am going to continue to be one angry girl!!!

Glee!!!!!

   I'm am just so happy!!! I watched it a day late but I got to watch Glee last night! You know how sometimes you just feel like your drowning in the drama and stress of life and something just pulls you out? Well for me Glee did that. Last season my friends and family would all get together and watch it and after such a crazy summer, I felt just trapped in a place I can only call hell, but then it was time for season 2 of Glee. And it was just amazing. And although it may sound a little crazy I kinda feel like some of my old life is back.
   If you don't watch Glee or just missed the first one, OMG! you are missing out! Because it was just the perfect starting point for the show! And this is going to be and amazing season! I already know everything that is going to happen, thanks to People's Special Glee Issue, but still I can't wait for it to all come alive on screen.
   Oh and I am only anti-Sunshine because she put Rachel in a funk! lol She is amazing but to me no one can ever be better than Rachel. And I'm just so happy about Finn and Rachel! I thought they were just so CUTE! Like even thought Rachel went a little crazy for a minute Finn was still there for her and I just loved that!!!!

ME!

   So I guess I should just start out with the basics. My name is Cady! I enjoy life! I am in my second year of swing choir and my fourth year of marching band. I am an alto in choir and play a mellophone in band.
   I am not going to lie, I love choir more than band. Don't get me wrong though, I love band, but there is just something about singing that just gets me. Its like you just pour everything that you are into that song. If I'm having a really bad day then just singing a song seems to help more than anything else and I love it.
   I love being infront of people. I know it sounds bad but I like the attention sometimes. I love to do something I love and get praise for it.

   I guess something else about me is that I really really really believe that everyone should be treated the same. I love all people, granted some scare me a bit more than others, but I still love them all. And I am huge on gay rights. I myself am not gay, but I don't think its fair the way some of them get treated.
   To me love is love. When you find it you have to hold onto it. So if you just so happen to find it in the same sex I think you should still hold on just as tight.